Ok. It is only 2 days after I have passed my finals. But I am seriously bored!
For the past few weeks, I have been spending most of my time reading, studying and completing assignments. Before I sat for my exams, my brain kept on wandering away from the topics I was reading on (Addison's disease, outcome 9, audit, etc) to the various things I want to do after the exam (shopping, read chick books). "Stop thinking...and concentrate." That was what I told myself.
Now that exams are over. My brain shouts "Yippee!! You are free now! Push those adrenal glands away, no more outcomes, go do anything you want." Sounds pretty easy eh? But heck, it is no easy task.
Every morning, I wake up thinking of what I should do for the day. To make matters worse, the sun rises as early as 5 am in the morning, and I can't sleep for longer even if I want to. The sun was just too bright. I went for a jog, shower, ate bfast. I really took my time through all those..and the clock only showed it was 8am! urgh...why is the time passing so slowly?? Ok nevermind. So I went to read the newspapers, did some pointless surfing....and looked at the time again...only 10am?? sigh. Shopping? done that, but there was nothing to buy. Read chick books? not in the right mood to do so yet. Study and prepare for work? No way I am going to pick up my Oxford Handbook to read (at least not now)!
I guess the problem is before exams, all I did was sit down, study and study. And once when I do not need to do that, my life suddenly feels awkwardly free. Ok ok...I know many of you are still studying for your finals and wished that you can be in my position. I shall keep quiet and enjoy my relaxing moment. =)
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Friday, May 26, 2006
No Longer An Undergraduate
Yeap, you did not read that wrongly. I am NO LONGER an undergraduate! I have my MBChB finally!! yiippeee!!!! =P
I sat for my Final Viva exam yesterday. The days leading to "D-Day" of exam and during the exam itself, were no doubt, frightening and stressful. Everyday, my heart starts to pump hard, butterflies fly around my tummy, both fingers and toes turn icy cold, loss appetite to eat..etc..etc... I am sure you guys have experienced these before. But I think this time, my stress level has received a place in the "Saw Ling Book of Record", as the highest stress level in my life.
Even after the exam, the agony while waiting for my results was stressful too. It was such a tremendous relief the moment I saw my name in the pass list on the board. I was so happy until tears of joy just started to roll down my cheeks. Come to think of it, 5 years of medical school just passed rather quickly...it was not easy, and yes, I have finally made it to the end. All my hardwork, and my parent's money have paid off. Thanks mum n dad!
The good thing is I can now support myself. My parents do not need to give me pocket money anymore. They can sit down and relax. And I can buy anything I want without feeling the guilt!
As for now, I shall enjoy my break till August, which is when I start to work. Should I travel somewhere? hmm...ok, let me plan me holiday! =)
I sat for my Final Viva exam yesterday. The days leading to "D-Day" of exam and during the exam itself, were no doubt, frightening and stressful. Everyday, my heart starts to pump hard, butterflies fly around my tummy, both fingers and toes turn icy cold, loss appetite to eat..etc..etc... I am sure you guys have experienced these before. But I think this time, my stress level has received a place in the "Saw Ling Book of Record", as the highest stress level in my life.
Even after the exam, the agony while waiting for my results was stressful too. It was such a tremendous relief the moment I saw my name in the pass list on the board. I was so happy until tears of joy just started to roll down my cheeks. Come to think of it, 5 years of medical school just passed rather quickly...it was not easy, and yes, I have finally made it to the end. All my hardwork, and my parent's money have paid off. Thanks mum n dad!
The good thing is I can now support myself. My parents do not need to give me pocket money anymore. They can sit down and relax. And I can buy anything I want without feeling the guilt!
As for now, I shall enjoy my break till August, which is when I start to work. Should I travel somewhere? hmm...ok, let me plan me holiday! =)
Saturday, May 20, 2006
What's My Age Again?
As I was walking along the pathway outside my house, the neighbour's kids approached me. There were 3 of them at that time, all still in primary school. We had a short conversation.
All Gals: Hi!
Me: Hello
Gal 01: How old are you?
Me: How old do you think I am?
Gal 01: 20?
(I shook my head)
Gal 02: 21?
Me: Nope. I'm 23.
Gal 02 (was speaking to her friend): She looks like she's 12 years old.
Me: Awww....that's sweet. (smiling to myself)
=) It is amazing how young people think I am over here. This was not my first experience of someone saying that I looked younger than my age. A few of the patients I spoke to always commented that I looked like I am 15 or 16. (Don't mean to brag bout myself) But, I think it is because the Caucasians generally look more mature for their age. Most of my fellow students in my year are 22 years old, and they do look like they are over 25. Or maybe it is because I am short (I'm surely taller than 5 ft). Whatever. Not important.
But, I shall thank my M'sian genes for making me look youthful la! =P
All Gals: Hi!
Me: Hello
Gal 01: How old are you?
Me: How old do you think I am?
Gal 01: 20?
(I shook my head)
Gal 02: 21?
Me: Nope. I'm 23.
Gal 02 (was speaking to her friend): She looks like she's 12 years old.
Me: Awww....that's sweet. (smiling to myself)
=) It is amazing how young people think I am over here. This was not my first experience of someone saying that I looked younger than my age. A few of the patients I spoke to always commented that I looked like I am 15 or 16. (Don't mean to brag bout myself) But, I think it is because the Caucasians generally look more mature for their age. Most of my fellow students in my year are 22 years old, and they do look like they are over 25. Or maybe it is because I am short (I'm surely taller than 5 ft). Whatever. Not important.
But, I shall thank my M'sian genes for making me look youthful la! =P
Friday, May 19, 2006
Flowers
ahhh...flowers, I just can't get enough of them. I think eversince I came to UK, I have began to really (I mean, REALLY) appreciate flowers. I have never taken these many pictures of flowers in my life so far. =) hehe... Flowers are pretty (so many colours) , bold (stand up tall all by themselves) yet innocent (they just bloom when the time is right).
Today, my housemates and I had a little photo taking session at a wee garden near our house. Every year, they seem to plant tulips of different colours. =) It was such a lovely day at that time, the sun was shining brightly. Lucky for us, we managed to snap our photos before the dark clouds came rushing in, blocking away the pretty sunlight. It eventually rained quite heavily later in the evening. This sort of made the day turned gloomy. Oh well, whatever it is, flowers certainly made me happy today!!
Today, my housemates and I had a little photo taking session at a wee garden near our house. Every year, they seem to plant tulips of different colours. =) It was such a lovely day at that time, the sun was shining brightly. Lucky for us, we managed to snap our photos before the dark clouds came rushing in, blocking away the pretty sunlight. It eventually rained quite heavily later in the evening. This sort of made the day turned gloomy. Oh well, whatever it is, flowers certainly made me happy today!!
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Summer is Coming!!
Yeap...summer is looming in! Look at the cherry blossoms shedding off their last petals... =) It was a really pretty view this morning after I went for my jog. The petals basically covered the whole road. Unfortunately, sad to say, the sun has been rather shy this week. She has been hiding behind the clothes most of the time and allowing the clouds to cry almost everyday!! The day started off pretty well, with bright sunny sunshine, but, now, the dark clouds are fast covering the sky. sigh...hope it doesn't rain.Anyway, here are some a few more pics I took this morning. Was kinda getting crazy studying for my exams (although I have to admit I haven't been particularly hardworking). But enjoy the pretty pics.
Pretty Red Tulips
Yellow/Red Tulips
Pink Tulip
Purple/Yellow TulipMonday, May 15, 2006
Lazy Weekend
The weekend has just passed by quickly. I have recovered from my sleep deprivation. Slept early during the weekend, had my morning jogs to help me release endorphins and improve my fitness level.
Oh, did I mention I spent both Saturday and Sunday watching Australia's Next Top Model (Season1). The telly was showing 4 episodes in a row on both days. I didn't really want to watch, but in the end, got hooked up with it bcoz I didnt know how to prepare myself for my exam. Sounds weird doesnt? But, I really have to sit down and think, what sort of questions they are going to shoot at me. There is no way I could read everything in my portfolio...hmm....tough tough.
Anyway, back to the model show, it was really interesting...you could actually see and experience all the bitchiness among them. hehe. And they actually learned quite alot of things, like eating etiquette, dressing, make up, and all had to go for a bikini wax!! hehe.. it was funny to see them cursing out loud when the person ripped off their hair.....poor ppl.
On Saturday nite, I was too sleepy to do any work (still havent recovered yet at that time). My housemate bought a DVD, called "Just Like Heaven". The show starred Reese Witherspoon, who looked so pretty in the movie. She played the role of a doctor. She has never experienced love ever so far. Suddenly, she was involved in a RTA (opps..sorry, it means Road Traffic Accident) and ended up in a coma. Her spirit left her body and could only be seen by one particular guy. Love started to bloom between both of them. When she finally woke up, she couldnt remember him. This part was quite sad. But, eventually, they both finally got together..You really gotta watch the movie coz I didnt describe it fully here. It made me laugh, and it made me cry!! Highly recommended.
So, today, I am back to full swing (hopefully!!). But I sort of lost my mood this morning...so hope I'll regain it back soon...otherwise, I wouldnt be able to get my work done.
Have a good week ahead everyone!
Oh, did I mention I spent both Saturday and Sunday watching Australia's Next Top Model (Season1). The telly was showing 4 episodes in a row on both days. I didn't really want to watch, but in the end, got hooked up with it bcoz I didnt know how to prepare myself for my exam. Sounds weird doesnt? But, I really have to sit down and think, what sort of questions they are going to shoot at me. There is no way I could read everything in my portfolio...hmm....tough tough.
Anyway, back to the model show, it was really interesting...you could actually see and experience all the bitchiness among them. hehe. And they actually learned quite alot of things, like eating etiquette, dressing, make up, and all had to go for a bikini wax!! hehe.. it was funny to see them cursing out loud when the person ripped off their hair.....poor ppl.
On Saturday nite, I was too sleepy to do any work (still havent recovered yet at that time). My housemate bought a DVD, called "Just Like Heaven". The show starred Reese Witherspoon, who looked so pretty in the movie. She played the role of a doctor. She has never experienced love ever so far. Suddenly, she was involved in a RTA (opps..sorry, it means Road Traffic Accident) and ended up in a coma. Her spirit left her body and could only be seen by one particular guy. Love started to bloom between both of them. When she finally woke up, she couldnt remember him. This part was quite sad. But, eventually, they both finally got together..You really gotta watch the movie coz I didnt describe it fully here. It made me laugh, and it made me cry!! Highly recommended.
So, today, I am back to full swing (hopefully!!). But I sort of lost my mood this morning...so hope I'll regain it back soon...otherwise, I wouldnt be able to get my work done.
Have a good week ahead everyone!
Friday, May 12, 2006
41 Hours 21 mins of Consciousness
My deadline to hand in my work was yesterday at 1pm. I rushed and struggled to finish my work... it was to write 12 pages worth of reflection on my progress throughout my years as a student. I had no choice but to burn the midnight oil to finish the work. Here is a brief idea of what I did.
Thursday
0500 woke up
0530 started to edit my work on the computer
0830 hungry, decided to eat some cereal
0845 resumed my work
1400 lunch
1420 resumed my work again, planned to finish everything by 6pm
1800 work not completed
1930 went to uni to print out some stuff
2030 decided to go home bcoz the idiot colour printer did not want to print
2045 gulped all my food (microwaved chicken tikka masala), and started work again
Friday
0000 needed my caffeine boost...had a cup of cappuccino
0500 still struggling to finish up the last few pages
0600 urgghhh...why can't i finish this work!!!
0800 stomach was growling...very hungry..had not had anything to eat since dinner....but I did not have the time to even walk to the kitchen to get some food, or to drink water..
1000 finally finished the typing..now I have to print out the headings for my folder...
1030 still no time to drink water, was too absorbed in printing, drawing boxes and cutting the headings...my hunger pangs have gone
1100 began arranging everything into place..pasting the headings onto the right dividers, and also printing out some of my work to include into the folder...still no time to drink water...
1200 realised that I needed to print out those coloured pages...decided to screw the colour coz I wouldnt have the time to use the printer in the uni. so, I decided to use my black n white printer instead...hmmm..turned out ugly..but nevermind.
1230 30 mins to deadline....began to write down the contents...there were 20 headings..gotta rush. oh..just remembered I forgot to print out the front cover with my name, ID no..
SHIT!!
1245 finally completed everything, changed into proper clothes (was still in my pyjamas) n left to hand in my folder. was thirsty...but again, no time to drink water.
1250 arrived at the uni (quite fast eh? coz I ran, i would usually take about 10mins with a leisure walk). my throat was so dry...as in REALLY REALLY DRY...it was even difficult to swallow my salive...then, I thought, hmm...I sitll have 10 mins left...maybe I should try my luck with the colour printer.
1255 yay!! I managed to print my 2 coloured graphs...was quite happy, but I realised that the colour didnt turn out as nice...probably the ink was low or something..but hey, nevermind, at least they looked better than the black n white graphs!
1300 reached the office to hand in my stuff...was glad to see that I was not late bcoz there was quite a queue, everyone waiting to hand in their work as well.
1315 ahh....done and dusted...wasnt too happy with my work..coz i didnt have the time to read over again..
1330 arrived back home, saw my friends waiting for me for lunch (their deadline was an hour earlier than mine). AAahhh...finally, my first sip of water!!!!
1400 had lunch at a nice pub, decided to hang out at in the shopping mall..was looking for a
nice coat to wear for my oral exam.
1700 discovered a nice coat in Zara..but no size. sigh. was told that new stock may or may not arrive in the next week..so maybe i'll try again.
1730 everyone was in need of caffeine..ended up in starbucks for some drinks. They have new concoction of drinks, like Banana caramel and Java chips (both are frappuccinos). I decided to try Java chips (which has coffee, choc, choc chips..something like Rhumba). It was really good....so thick and just the right degree of bitterness!! I thought the Rhumba was too sweet.
1830 left the city centre and took the bus back to home.
1900 home at last. realised my room was in a terrible state of mess...papers everywhere on the floor, the leftover cuttings all over the place, books here n there.
2030 It is American Idol time!!! had poopcorn too while watching.
2200 very sleepy..couldnt open my eyes, but decided to give my mum a ring (coz i told her i didnt have the time to chat with her yesterday)
2220 fell asleep while speaking to her...sorry mum!
2221 ZZZzzzzZZZZZzzzzzz
By the end of the day, my eyes were straining and aching, my muscles were tensed and I think I have permanently developed Carpal Tunnel Syndrome in my right arm. SIGH. Such "fun" life I have!
Thursday
0500 woke up
0530 started to edit my work on the computer
0830 hungry, decided to eat some cereal
0845 resumed my work
1400 lunch
1420 resumed my work again, planned to finish everything by 6pm
1800 work not completed
1930 went to uni to print out some stuff
2030 decided to go home bcoz the idiot colour printer did not want to print
2045 gulped all my food (microwaved chicken tikka masala), and started work again
Friday
0000 needed my caffeine boost...had a cup of cappuccino
0500 still struggling to finish up the last few pages
0600 urgghhh...why can't i finish this work!!!
0800 stomach was growling...very hungry..had not had anything to eat since dinner....but I did not have the time to even walk to the kitchen to get some food, or to drink water..
1000 finally finished the typing..now I have to print out the headings for my folder...
1030 still no time to drink water, was too absorbed in printing, drawing boxes and cutting the headings...my hunger pangs have gone
1100 began arranging everything into place..pasting the headings onto the right dividers, and also printing out some of my work to include into the folder...still no time to drink water...
1200 realised that I needed to print out those coloured pages...decided to screw the colour coz I wouldnt have the time to use the printer in the uni. so, I decided to use my black n white printer instead...hmmm..turned out ugly..but nevermind.
1230 30 mins to deadline....began to write down the contents...there were 20 headings..gotta rush. oh..just remembered I forgot to print out the front cover with my name, ID no..
SHIT!!
1245 finally completed everything, changed into proper clothes (was still in my pyjamas) n left to hand in my folder. was thirsty...but again, no time to drink water.
1250 arrived at the uni (quite fast eh? coz I ran, i would usually take about 10mins with a leisure walk). my throat was so dry...as in REALLY REALLY DRY...it was even difficult to swallow my salive...then, I thought, hmm...I sitll have 10 mins left...maybe I should try my luck with the colour printer.
1255 yay!! I managed to print my 2 coloured graphs...was quite happy, but I realised that the colour didnt turn out as nice...probably the ink was low or something..but hey, nevermind, at least they looked better than the black n white graphs!
1300 reached the office to hand in my stuff...was glad to see that I was not late bcoz there was quite a queue, everyone waiting to hand in their work as well.
1315 ahh....done and dusted...wasnt too happy with my work..coz i didnt have the time to read over again..
1330 arrived back home, saw my friends waiting for me for lunch (their deadline was an hour earlier than mine). AAahhh...finally, my first sip of water!!!!
1400 had lunch at a nice pub, decided to hang out at in the shopping mall..was looking for a
nice coat to wear for my oral exam.
1700 discovered a nice coat in Zara..but no size. sigh. was told that new stock may or may not arrive in the next week..so maybe i'll try again.
1730 everyone was in need of caffeine..ended up in starbucks for some drinks. They have new concoction of drinks, like Banana caramel and Java chips (both are frappuccinos). I decided to try Java chips (which has coffee, choc, choc chips..something like Rhumba). It was really good....so thick and just the right degree of bitterness!! I thought the Rhumba was too sweet.
1830 left the city centre and took the bus back to home.
1900 home at last. realised my room was in a terrible state of mess...papers everywhere on the floor, the leftover cuttings all over the place, books here n there.
2030 It is American Idol time!!! had poopcorn too while watching.
2200 very sleepy..couldnt open my eyes, but decided to give my mum a ring (coz i told her i didnt have the time to chat with her yesterday)
2220 fell asleep while speaking to her...sorry mum!
2221 ZZZzzzzZZZZZzzzzzz
By the end of the day, my eyes were straining and aching, my muscles were tensed and I think I have permanently developed Carpal Tunnel Syndrome in my right arm. SIGH. Such "fun" life I have!
Monday, May 01, 2006
Life is Tough
The flowers are blooming,
The birds are chirping,
The sun is shinning,
But my heart is yearning.
I yearn for someone to care,
I yearn for someone to love,
I yearn for someone to cuddle,
I yearn for someone unreachable.
When I sit down to eat,
When I sit down to drink,
When I look outside the window,
All I can think of is you.
I have lost my beam of support,
I have lost my source of happiness,
I have lost my dreams,
I have lost you.
Dreams are not just dreams,
Dreams are something to look forward to,
Dreams are meant to be shared with someone you love,
But when dreams don't meet, that's when everything falls apart.
I've never told you a lie,
I've never want to break your heart,
I've never felt this miserable in my life,
But I know, whatever I do, I will never win you back.
Pls forgive me for sounding so sad...but this is the state I'm in now.
Hope all of you will find someone who loves and cares for you.
And remember, when you have, treasure the person like gold.
Dun ever let he/she slip out of your hands, bcoz you'll never be able to get the person back. It's like finding a needle in the sea.
Life is always tough, remember that.
As for now, I shall use all my energy and strength to be happy. Dun worry, I'll be fine.
The birds are chirping,
The sun is shinning,
But my heart is yearning.
I yearn for someone to care,
I yearn for someone to love,
I yearn for someone to cuddle,
I yearn for someone unreachable.
When I sit down to eat,
When I sit down to drink,
When I look outside the window,
All I can think of is you.
I have lost my beam of support,
I have lost my source of happiness,
I have lost my dreams,
I have lost you.
Dreams are not just dreams,
Dreams are something to look forward to,
Dreams are meant to be shared with someone you love,
But when dreams don't meet, that's when everything falls apart.
I've never told you a lie,
I've never want to break your heart,
I've never felt this miserable in my life,
But I know, whatever I do, I will never win you back.
Pls forgive me for sounding so sad...but this is the state I'm in now.
Hope all of you will find someone who loves and cares for you.
And remember, when you have, treasure the person like gold.
Dun ever let he/she slip out of your hands, bcoz you'll never be able to get the person back. It's like finding a needle in the sea.
Life is always tough, remember that.
As for now, I shall use all my energy and strength to be happy. Dun worry, I'll be fine.
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